The theme of my paintings is “objectivity”.
I’ve loved drawing since I was about 4 years old, and drawing was the only thing I got praised for. I went to an art high school and kept trying to draw, but I didn’t get much appreciation for it. Around the age of 17, I started having trouble with my relationships, and I found myself drawing only squares. I liked buildings and architecture to begin with, so I found it soothing to look at them. When I drew squares, I was able to look at my anxious feelings objectively and become calm. It was like I could become nothing, and at that time I didn’t think that what I was drawing was art. I thought I was just putting my painful feelings on paper. One day, there was an exhibition that only high school students could enter, and since it was the last time I was in high school, I entered a square, and to my surprise, I won an award. I thought, “There are people who see this as art. I felt that it was important to have a third party look at my work. I realized that my art and people who are not confident in themselves can also feel that “it’s not like that”, and I have been drawing squares ever since. I went to art school, but quit after three months because I didn’t fit in, and I had an unfounded confidence that I could go as an outsider. I think I got an earlier start than most people of my generation, and I have no regrets.